Mood for Today? Penny for my thoughts?

Today was a mixture of bliss and loneliness.. i was happy to see my family once again, however i was'nt quiet sure on how to handle them once they have arrived. dont get me wrong i greeted them and said my wishes and all, its just that i dont seem to have something to offer to the table. i was just able to stay and listen to their conversation.. i guess sometimes the only way to be a part of the conversation is if you listen. I'll try to keep that in mind whenever i feel like lonely. Being the center of attention is not something you can achieved in a few days, although i wont want to be that way much of the time..

Anyways, went for solat raya and it was crowded yet we managed to squeeze in.. earlier, we went to visit my family's grave site.. gave our doa's and bacakan surah yaasin.. cried when i visited each of my beloved family. baca Al-Ikhlas to them and left to change to baju raya. spent the time at my grandma's place and entertain the guest as best as i can.. the numbers just keep on coming... its great to see so many of them again.. one of my relatives sent her regard to me while i was away.. very nice of her.. late evening, we as a family went to get our annual family photo taken only this time without our beloved father with us as he is at melaka with his mother.. :) the family of chindio arabondons were at large and were last seen at the Muzium Baru Negeri Kedah causing untold havoc as they defiled the place with many cute and sporting poses. hehehe..

Overall, today was an average day. the spirit of raya is there but it just feels different without all our dearly departed family members who made raya a memorable day each year for the whole family.. i miss them so.. lets hope for more things to come for tomorrow. Gotta get my motivation to do my assignments and presentation.. dont lag behind.. Allahhuakbar!!!! Salam.. Peace